A girl doesn’t need anyone who doesn’t need her


Hai Friends…

Its 00.00 hrs according to Indian Standard Time and i am writing this post with a broken heart. The nostalgic moments come alive and i feel totally alone in this wide weird world.

So guys… coming back to the title of the blog…

 "A girl doesn't need anyone who doesn't need her- Marilyn Monroe"

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caught my attention just now when i was surfing Google. I really agree with each and  every word of this sentence mainly because of its relevance in today’s practical life.

People today have become so selfish that they don’t even bother whether the person who helped them a lot during their distress is standing now alone in a lonely planet without any help from anyone. How could they just turn a blind-eye towards others?

Every day they scar others face with knives of hatred, avoidance, arrogance, scheming, back stabbing above all making them feel bad with their evergreen capacity of pissing the other person’s mood off with their so called “silly things”. These silly things include the following

1. acting a big dumb hypocrite
2. acting very self centered
3. acting super super dumb when the other person is in desperate need

I experience this each day and at the end of the day i feel

"I have won over the battle of Good v/s Evil and pat myself saying 
I am being strong by not uttering a single word against them and 
resisting all those negative treatments with my hard core silence"

Sometimes i feel what Marilyn Monroe is so so right. These days i have learnt how not to care for these people in my life. I have learnt that i should not let these people piss my mood off because if i get disturbed by their words its as simple as stating the fact that

"Other people can piss your mood off just like some SWITCH and
 you are some puppet in their hands "

Instead what you can do is do is a self analysis of your own behavior and think and rethink what is the mistake from your side…. And hopefully if your inner subconscious answers that you are right then Friends you can say to yourself that

"I don't need them in my life... All i now wanna do is 
move on with loads of lessons taught by them and 
be optimistic in life instead of re-thinking it each 
and every moment and hurting yourself more and more each second"

When this case applies for a girl i feel ladies can simply try to take the first step towards becoming more and more strong in their lives and not giving a damn for those people who cannot stand your happiness. They are not even worth of having a place in your beautiful mind. All you can do is move on and forget them as soon as possible….

Thanks a lot friends for reading my depressive post…

Lots of love to you all,

ARK

An ode to my best friend.


Dearest Friend,

A very happy morning to you!!!!

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I wish i could have been the invisible cool breeze that would touch your face and make you feel more happy with the rising sun….

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I wish i could manage to borrow some Magical Wand from Harry Potter’s Hogwarts and erase off all the painful memories from your life……

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I wish i could give you off all my Happy Moments for you happily and fill your life with smiles… and only smiles…..

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I confess before you for saying all those harshful words that scarred your day yesterday………

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I regret now… for hurting you so much by asking those things which you always avoided from me…..

Oh friend!!!! Break your silence before i break my head thinking “What went wrong from my end???”

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Don’t leave me alone……… without an answer…because your silence is killing me and making me feel secluded from the rest of the world….

Come back again…. I promise… you shall relive the same freshness of our friendship again….

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Ending it with high hopes of your returning back……….

ARK

 

Daily Prompt #3: All About Me


Daily Prompt: All About Me.

Hai Friends. Welcome to yet another part of DAILY PROMPT.

Ok so…. without beating around the bush lemme say what  the Daily Prompt says “Explain why you chose your blog’s title and what it means to you”

So….If you see my Blog’s About page … its having nothing but a picture with White background on which there are full of words tiled Vertically Horizontally Diagonally etc…

I chose my blog’s title under my name basically due to few reasons

  1. I wanted to create a niche for myself in this vast WordPress.com under my original Name and not some fancy names like “Lovely Angel”, “Lively Me” etc because I am neither an Angelic Beauty nor a person who lives life to the fullest. I cuss about Life many a times and love it infinite times… and coming to the point of fancy names like Angel… God has not blessed me much with my looks.
  2. Creating a blog was a dream since 2009… main reason for this is i am kind of crazy lady who is always in her own world of Dreams.. just like Alice in Wonderland… so i somewhere believe that there are many more people just like me who still believe in Fairy Tales and the goodness in them…

I believe that people who are carzy enough to think the impossible are the ones who bring about a change in this world. I am always proud of what i am… no matter what people call me as “dumb” “numskull”…

When they call me “dumb” or “numskull” all i feel is

“i am just in wrong place…that’s it… that’s the reason these ppl feel i am a misfit here”.

My blog is the perfect place for me to be myself.

That’s why… my tagline is “all about being ME!”…

I wanna cherish the fact that I am being Myself at one place called ambikarani.wordpress.com and i have a small group of people who follow me and my posts regularly… I am extremely grateful to all those people who are in my blogging community for their constant feedbacks and support which makes me write each day with a new spirit.

Main motto of my blog is to put down all those thoughts in my heart into a place where few souls like me would read it and feel “yes there is another Lady of our clan…”

 

Thanks for reading my blog post…

Thanks Daily Prompt for giving this Idea..

Love you all,

ARK

Daily Prompt #4: Mentor Me


Daily Prompt: Mentor Me. Hai Friends… Welcome to my blog “ambikarani- all about being me”. Today the Daily Prompt guys have given me an idea about writing something on MENTOR. Here it is what they want us to write on

Have you ever had a mentor? What was the greatest lesson you learned from him or her?

Well i am a bi -product of mentoring from a very huge battalion of Mentors ranging from my Mother to my high school teachers, from my College Lecturers to Workplace Mentors.

Now amidst this huge battalion of Mentors how would i decide which mentor to approach when? Because consider the below situation.

One day i was feeling low because of some tension at workplace… i called my Mentor from college. She said

 ”People will criticize but you have to hold on…”

whereas when i approached my Workplace mentor he said

“Escalate this matter and make things clear in the initial phase… if you are quiet people will dump you”

 Then came the tough job “Whom shall i listen to?” Luckily i selected my mentor at workplace and things got sorted out pretty faster.

So the main thing that i am trying to say is it’s not just enough that you have a mentor you must be wise enough to choose who can be of your help in which situation.

In my case i had 3 such mentors who never let me down and lemme mind you each one has taught me some important lessons in life. I will recall the ones which help me on a daily basis. Hope it will all those aggressive people like me in their life.

  1. My Mother : I call her Mentor #1 always because she knows how to tame an idiot like me always. Her techniques are violent includes

“Insulting me to the core, Comparing me with others, Humiliating etc etc” but in the end..

She proves to be #1 remedy for all problems in my life.

             What did i learn from her?

Life is never a bed of roses.

There is no shortcut for success except hard work.

Never lose  courage and never befriend someone who is not having respect for ladies.

Never give up and Never underestimate yourself. Fight until you win.

2.       My best friend: Well… he proves to be medicine for most of my emotional problems …namely depression, anger, mood swings. An Electrical Engineer by profession… took to full time Psychological Consulting after he met me. His methods are quite simple.

“You listen to me as i said or else die… Nobody can ever reform you if you won’t listen to them.”

What did i learn from him?

Whenever there is a problem don’t cloud your eyes with tears…. Instead hold them because if you cry you will not be able to see what lies ahead of you and again you may miss some golden opportunity

Adjustment is the only key to survive in this ever changing world. It’s not the biggest and the fittest that survives well in nature but it’s the one who adapts thrives to survive in this fast changing world.

3.      My workplace mentor: An Enterprise Architect by profession became my formal mentor when i first started my career in IT and then became my best friend as well as best mentor of my lifetime. His techniques are

  “You are very hopeless lady on this Earth…you know

You gotta lower this bad attitude otherwise career will be in jeopardy

When will you stop coming to me for silly issues… learn to be independent”.

 Months after he has left our company still he remains to be my best mentor throughout my life.

What did i learn from him?

Honest self-analysis is very important in life. You got to accept that you are not good at certain stuffs honestly. Because it is then you will be able to understand what are your strengths and weaknesses in life.

Always have a written goals and objectives in your diary book. This will help you see that daily and what you see is what you become. See the brighter side of life

NOT ALL BATTLES HAVE TO BE WON… SOME BATTLES HAVE TO BE LOST INORDER TO GO TO THE TOP

Thanks a lot for reading my post.

Love you all,

ARK

 

 

Daily Prompt #2: Shoulda Woulda Coulda


Daily Prompt: Shoulda Woulda Coulda.

Hai Everybody… First things First. A happy Valentine’s Day to you all !!! Love ya fellow bloggers and sincere readers of WordPress.

OK coming back straight to the Daily Prompt Theme… It says “SHOULDA WOULDA COULDA” that means what i wanted to do…and why i did not do…and why i wont do it also…

Well at this point of time if i start thinking about

WHAT I COULD HAVE DONE?

WHAT I SHOULD HAVE DONE?

WHAT I WOULD DO?

Then i am sure i would break into a pool of tears because i have done lots of things i should not have done…and i regret for lot many things which i could have done but did not do…and hope i would do this …or do that for many situations in daily life. But the major question is what is stopping me from these SHOULDA WOULDA COULDA ??? Why is the “A” Factor still there when God has given me full potential to achieve whatever i want in life???

Then i remember my Mother’s divine words…. “LETHARGY… LAZINESS… RECKLESSNESS…. IMPROPER FOCUS… + all negative adjectives of good things” Lol.

On a serious note i feel what she said is right…I remember few lines from Coach Carter movie where the coach says to his students and the Jury of the School a few lines from Marianne Williamson

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. 
 Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. 
 It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. 
 You playing small does not serve the world. 
 There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people 
   won’t feel insecure around you. 
 We are all meant to shine as children do. 
 It’s not just in some of us; it is in everyone.
 And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give 
       other people permission to do the same. 
As we are liberated from our own fear,
   our presence automatically liberates others"

This purely means that we are always afraid to attempt to some task because of the pre-notion that “What if i fail in this?” “What if people say i am nuts? . Its the Low self esteem and low self confidence/ self doubt that holds us from achieving something great. We allow all negative things to come into our mind before we start doing something. But the biggest truth is even the mighty people like Thomas Alva Edison, Steve Jobs, Abraham Lincoln all have faced setbacks in their life but they never let those setbacks take the front seat in their lives. Instead they never gave up…and this “Never say Never” spirit made them achieve what we people could never even imagine of.

Coming back to my case I always wanted to be a writer and wanted to study English Literature. But what happened when i had to choose my core subjects in my 10th standard. I did not have the guts to say “Mom i wanna opt for Literature and not Sciences” and what happened?

The basics of Physics never got assimilated, Maths became my Enemy…Chemistry became Mystery and i used to top in English all the time and that made me feel OK many a times.

What happened when life gave me another chance to opt for Literature? I felt very insecure when Literature was not having many Job Opportunities in the current market and again i married Maths and Physics. But this time… i fell in love with both the subjects because of my great Lecturers who made me understand each and every concept in hi-fi English. Yes they somehow got the hint that English is the medicine for this Numskull. Lol.

Finally when it came to choosing a job or higher studies i think ….i think…yes i made the right decision in life by choosing IT as my field.

So what happened by that time?

I rebelled with my mom saying i suck at studies anyways… i can become a very good lecturer as in many Physics Seminars people said you make the audience go gaga with your Perfect Idioms and Phrases scattered throughout the Seminar but …. in reality nobody will take a lady who has low marks in academics and has bundles of Extra Curricular achievements in her kitty. So the only option left was IT….(Software field…where academics don’t serve any purpose)

Initially my mom said “Are you sure?” After 1.5 years in this field she says “You have decided something very best in your life….”

Thanks for all you people for reading my post…

Love you all

Regards…

ARK