Hai Everybody… First things First. A happy Valentine’s Day to you all !!! Love ya fellow bloggers and sincere readers of WordPress.
OK coming back straight to the Daily Prompt Theme… It says “SHOULDA WOULDA COULDA” that means what i wanted to do…and why i did not do…and why i wont do it also…
Well at this point of time if i start thinking about
WHAT I COULD HAVE DONE?
WHAT I SHOULD HAVE DONE?
WHAT I WOULD DO?
Then i am sure i would break into a pool of tears because i have done lots of things i should not have done…and i regret for lot many things which i could have done but did not do…and hope i would do this …or do that for many situations in daily life. But the major question is what is stopping me from these SHOULDA WOULDA COULDA ??? Why is the “A” Factor still there when God has given me full potential to achieve whatever i want in life???
Then i remember my Mother’s divine words…. “LETHARGY… LAZINESS… RECKLESSNESS…. IMPROPER FOCUS… + all negative adjectives of good things” Lol.
On a serious note i feel what she said is right…I remember few lines from Coach Carter movie where the coach says to his students and the Jury of the School a few lines from Marianne Williamson
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. You playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. It’s not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others"
This purely means that we are always afraid to attempt to some task because of the pre-notion that “What if i fail in this?” “What if people say i am nuts? . Its the Low self esteem and low self confidence/ self doubt that holds us from achieving something great. We allow all negative things to come into our mind before we start doing something. But the biggest truth is even the mighty people like Thomas Alva Edison, Steve Jobs, Abraham Lincoln all have faced setbacks in their life but they never let those setbacks take the front seat in their lives. Instead they never gave up…and this “Never say Never” spirit made them achieve what we people could never even imagine of.
Coming back to my case I always wanted to be a writer and wanted to study English Literature. But what happened when i had to choose my core subjects in my 10th standard. I did not have the guts to say “Mom i wanna opt for Literature and not Sciences” and what happened?
The basics of Physics never got assimilated, Maths became my Enemy…Chemistry became Mystery and i used to top in English all the time and that made me feel OK many a times.
What happened when life gave me another chance to opt for Literature? I felt very insecure when Literature was not having many Job Opportunities in the current market and again i married Maths and Physics. But this time… i fell in love with both the subjects because of my great Lecturers who made me understand each and every concept in hi-fi English. Yes they somehow got the hint that English is the medicine for this Numskull. Lol.
Finally when it came to choosing a job or higher studies i think ….i think…yes i made the right decision in life by choosing IT as my field.
So what happened by that time?
I rebelled with my mom saying i suck at studies anyways… i can become a very good lecturer as in many Physics Seminars people said you make the audience go gaga with your Perfect Idioms and Phrases scattered throughout the Seminar but …. in reality nobody will take a lady who has low marks in academics and has bundles of Extra Curricular achievements in her kitty. So the only option left was IT….(Software field…where academics don’t serve any purpose)
Initially my mom said “Are you sure?” After 1.5 years in this field she says “You have decided something very best in your life….”
Thanks for all you people for reading my post…
Love you all